four five one zero (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} x_thoughtcrime) wrote,@ 2008-09-07 21:03:00 |
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tell me where it hurts
i'm borderline certain that she didn't exist. out of curiosity i added her to myspace for the sole purpose of seeing if anything was there, but, nothing. maybe i'm just hyper-sensitive, but it seems to me that if someone was your 'sister' that you'd have something there. pictures, words, fuck, anything. maybe it's her way of handling it, but i doubt it. i remember how she took it in the beginning. i want to say something, anything, but i don't know how, and i don't want to look obvious.
i really don't know what to do or say anymore, about anything really. i'm hurt, stressed, and i don't know what else. i literally felt i was going to have a heart attack last week. my chest hurt so, so bad to the point to where i couldn't fully inhale without feeling in pain.
i'm borderline certain that she didn't exist. out of curiosity i added her to myspace for the sole purpose of seeing if anything was there, but, nothing. maybe i'm just hyper-sensitive, but it seems to me that if someone was your 'sister' that you'd have something there. pictures, words, fuck, anything. maybe it's her way of handling it, but i doubt it. i remember how she took it in the beginning. i want to say something, anything, but i don't know how, and i don't want to look obvious.
i really don't know what to do or say anymore, about anything really. i'm hurt, stressed, and i don't know what else. i literally felt i was going to have a heart attack last week. my chest hurt so, so bad to the point to where i couldn't fully inhale without feeling in pain.
